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Last week, we brought you inside Santa Maria Juvenile Hall to meet S.D, a 17-year-old awaiting sentencing for a violent crime committed with a group of older boys when he was 14. S.D was facing 60 years to life, now he has taken a deal of “juvie life” which means he will stay in the California Youth Authority until the age of 25. To get the deal S.D had to testify against multiple other members of his gang, which has put him at serious risk even inside the juvenile hall…

A couple days after talking to S.D at Santa Maria Juvenile Hall Richard met with his mom who lives in Santa Maria and tries to maintain a normal life in spite of the rocky years she had with her son leading up to the arrest– from camping out  in the ‘hood at all hours to try and find S.D and bring him home, to his expulsion from school and ultimate initiation into the gang at the age of 14…

Read her story below:

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“I gave my son his Grandfather’s name… He will 18 in May. I hired an attorney for him… She gave me a deal, $15,000.00. I was going to do whatever I had to do to make sure he had a fair shot. This was his life. He was in trouble and being charged with something serious. I was going to do whatever I had to do to make sure he had an attorney. I was very fortunate and my uncle, my grandma passed away and left me some money. My uncle was the beneficiary and was able to send me more than half of what the attorney charged. Then I found out that my mother had another account in Arizona… but my lovely brother sort of wiped out the accounts and took all the money. So I was sort of stuck with half the balance. Fortunately, very fortunately, the courts took over and helped in paying the rest.”

[superquote]He was only in the gang for three months and 20 days before the incident occurred. I noticed him drifting down the wrong road and tried to get help for him, doors were all closed on me. Every resource I tried… nobody could help me. They basically told me they could help me when a crime had been committed. I was even out there on the streets at all hours trying to pull him out of there and bring him home.[/superquote]

“He’s propped up, charged as an adult. His charge was first degree murder, conspiracy to commit murder and gang enhancement. He was 14 at the time. Lompoc has gotten so bad. The gangs have gotten larger, I guess you could say kids that are jumped in are younger. It’s so sad. He was only in the gang for three months and 20 days before the incident occurred. I noticed him drifting down the wrong road and tried to get help for him, doors were all closed on me. He was never on probation. Since he wasn’t on probation I couldn’t get help. I tried the Grizzly Academy, they wouldn’t help either, you have to want to go there on your own and you have to be 16, he was 14. Every resource I tried… nobody could help me. They basically told me they could help me when a crime had been committed. And that’s basically false information because now that this crime had been committed, even through he didn’t do it but he was there, I didn’t have anyone knocking on my door saying O.K we can help you know. I went to Lompoc PD, narcotics officers, gang enforcement officers… I looked online. Tried boys town in Oklahoma. He had been in counseling, therapy, I had reached out to Victory Outreach, the big brother program… I mean you name it. I tried everything I could. I was even out there on the streets, they call it the hood, at all hours. It didn’t matter if it was 10 pm or 2 am, I was out there trying to do what I could to pull him out of there and bring him home. I was ready to pitch a tent out there. Sometimes I could catch him and sometimes he’d run away from me. It was a nightmare. But I wasn’t giving up. I was told him I would never let the gang win him over no matter what I had to do. So…”


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[superquote]S.D is my only child. He’s my baby. He’s it. He’s a good boy, he has a good heart. He just didn’t make some good choices.[/superquote]

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“S.D is my only child. He’s my baby. He’s it. He had been in trouble once before. It was a fight with another gang member, in the court he told the judge “Fuck you,” and was sent to Los Prietos Boys Camp. It was after a month in there that the gang enforcement agents pulled him out and charged him with the murder. He had changed a lot in Los Prietos, he said it was a good program for him. That camp was probably the best thing that could have happened to him.”

[superquote]He was introduced to the gang life at El Puente. Lots of kids on probation, gang members, you name it they were there. I don’t know if it was the excitement, the thrill of it all… I raised him to be different.[/superquote]

“What had happened was he was going to Vandenburg Middle School, he wasn’t doing great. To make a long story short, a few detentions added up and then he and a friend made a hole the size of a quarter on the seat of school bus. Due to that he was expelled from the entire district. Forced him to to go El Puente School. I think that did it. He wasn’t able to go to his school. He was introduced to the gang life at El Puente. Lots of kids on probation, gang members, you name it they were there. I don’t know if it was the excitement, the thrill of it all… I raised him to be different. Maybe it was “this is new, I’m curious.” I mean I am a single mom, but I raised him well. S.D was never out in the street, never out past curfew, once it was nighttime 7 or 8pm S.D was home. I’ve worked since he was a baby. I also made sure that every time I got a job it was Monday through Friday during day hours so I could be here at night. I was working at Michael’s, I still work there. After three years of day shifts my manager had a fit, and the district manager forced me to work nights. That was it. I had to start working nights, I couldn’t be home ’til 11:30, I had to work weekends. That and El Puente is when things started falling apart. He was here by himself, I ‘m sure that had an effect on him… but as a single mom I had to work. Didn’t have a choice, I had to raise him. I don’t have any family. My mom and dad, his grandparents are passed away.”

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In his bedroom, S.D’s mom keeps every Birthday and Christmas present he has been unable to receive or open during his three year detention.

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“He started being disrespectful at home. I would take his cell phone away and he would fight me for it. I would ground him and he would just fly out of the house. I thought “Whoa, S.D has always listened to me.” I could tell he was doing drugs when he was out on the street, with the gang members, it was altering him. He was drinking, smoking, popping pills, I think he tried meth a few times.”

[superquote] I think he’s come a long way. He’s doing awesome in school. I meet with him every Monday and Sunday, our last visit he was very proud and excited. [/superquote]

“S.D has come a long way. He has an attitude and a temper. He got in one fight a couple years ago, it was his fault. Once he was rushed by another gang member who called him a snitch, and then he got in trouble for defending himself. Other than that… I think he’s come a long way. He’s doing awesome in school. I meet with him every Monday and Sunday, our last visit he was very proud and excited. 20 credits and he’s done. I am very, very, very, very proud of him. He wasn’t doing any school outside, all Fs.”

“He’s a good boy, he has a good heart. He just didn’t make some good choices. He was looking at 60 years to life. But… S.D’s a good kid and he’s always told the truth. I told him, “it’s your decision. But I’m your mom and I don’t want you to take the rap for something you didn’t do.” I told him, “I understand you are in a gang, I get it. You might have a little bit of an initiative for his horrible crime but you need to speak up.” He was the youngest one out of all of them, so they expect him to take the rap. One day in juvie he said to me, “where are my friends? Why aren’t they coming forward with the truth?” and I said exactly and we had a good conversation. It was a hard decision but he decided to take the deal. Which is a crappy deal, but, they are willing to release him when he’s 25 years old. So, a few weeks ago he had to testify against 3 gang members. He’s at risk in there right now. According to his attorney, they did a crappy investigation, they had the kid who actually shot and killed the man and they let him go, now he is at large. If they catch him S.D will have to testify against him as well. But he won’t be at juvenile hall. They’ll be transporting him to YA, Youth Authority, which is basically a mini youth prison to my understanding. They don’t know which one they’ll transfer him to. I’m praying for Camarillo. I can file a hardship, because I’m a single parent and this is my only son, so I can request for him to stay near. If not, my understanding is that the next one is 6-8 hours away in Preston.”

[superquote]It was a hard decision but he decided to take the deal. Which is a crappy deal, but, they are willing to release him when he’s 25 years old. So, a few weeks ago he had to testify against 3 gang members. He’s at risk in there right now.[/superquote]

“S.D’s never had an issue with my being gay. I’ve been with my current girlfriend Shady two years now, she writes to S.D. My ex and I had been together for 11 years. We were having relationship issues and S.D saw all of it. They’d known each other since he was 4. He used to call her dad. At the end he lost respect for me, having to watch our relationship crumble. I think it had a huge impact on S.D joining the gang. I blame myself. As a mom, I know it was up to him to make that choice, but I know that things at home weren’t helping him to not make that decision. His father just barely came into his life. They met for the first time one day before he was locked up. So he’s met him. He’s not a great dad, that’s all I can say. He visits him off and on. He might pop up and go with me faithfully to visit S.D for a few months, then disappear. He says he’s been clean and sober and I think I believe him. He was a heroin addict. He was a gang member in Santa Barbara, he says no longer but sometimes I wonder.”

“April 5th will be three years awaiting trial. There were so many co defendants. They were waiting for their trials to be through, which should finish up this month. After that, S.D will go back to court a couple times. Because he took the deal, S.D might be able to go back to juvenile court and he might be able to be charged as a juvenile. One of the facilities he might go to has fire camp, I’m really pushing for that. Encouraging him to take advantage of any and all opportunities he might have in there.”

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